Beaches, waterparks, raspberries and cupcakes - that has been my week...not stressful at all! And I'm loving it! I feel like a huge weight has been lifted since I finished work! Never realized how heavy I had made it. I have been at the kids school twice this week and loved all of it!

Other good news...started swimming again...have shifted my brain to think in new ways...eating healthier...in my first week have lost 4 pounds...it's awesome and it's just the start! I'm realizing that once I start moving my body a little - it will get easier to move my body the in the ways it used to move...soccer fields here I come!! - okay a little ways to go yet but I'll take the baby steps.

Love'n life!!

Today is my last day of working the job that I have done off and on for the last 12 years. I am finding this challenging and emotional.

It is definatly time for change...I find my passion is not the same - I used to get excited even about the mundane but now the "everyday" is what challenges me the most. I still get all wound up about the extrodinary things...things like people doing things they never imagined. That still sets me on fire...When I talk about my friends who are doing things they never thought possible I still get all reved up!! But my energy none the less is not the same for the other parts of my days. So here I go - stepping off the plank...or at least that is what the mind picture I have today is...I just pray that the Lord will catch me and put me down gently into the ocean as I try and find my swimming arms in this new body of water.

I am freaked out and excited (okay more freaked out than excited!) - but I know that I have an amazing circle of support who will help me swim in the right direction and help me find land.

So where lays my passion? What does God have in store? What will my life look like in 6 months, 1 year, 2 years, 5 days?

I hearby release all preconcieved notions (and will continue to do so on a daily basis), live in the moment and TRUST the Lord to guide my life - as one thing I know for sure is that I have NO control over where he needs and wants me to be!

Another Monday. Only 4 more days of work left before I step off the edge into some new unkown adventures. For those who don't know two weeks ago I gave my notice with LES (after 12 years). I'm filled with mixed emotions...sad as I won't see the great group of friends (who have become like family) over the last 12 years on a daily basis...but excited about the possibilities that the future may hold. (Scared fits in there somewhere as well!)

I asked the girls what they thought I should do if I was to change jobs and neither skipped a beat...they both thought I would do well at daycare...so right now I am investigating licensing to provide daycare in our home. I'm excited but also nervous about the idea and will know more in the next 2-4 weeks.

For those of you who know me...if you have any ideas...please pass them on - I always appreciate some outside perspective.

Emotionally life is feeling like a roller coaster but I am trying to find specifically what it is that is making life feel so crazy and out of control and either slow it down or eliminate the turns alotogether.

On a completly different note...camping season is here!!! I figure the rain can't last forever -so we'll have great weather for camping! so planning we are doing.

So this post is a little disjointed but hopefully informative.

Bye for now.
Sonia

Life in a nut shell...realizations of the month...it is much easier to help people who want you help vs. people who say they want your help but really don't want it...from a relationship building experience it is much easier to build relationships with people who want relationships than people who say they do but don't ever make any effort into it...this may all sound basic and simple but some days things seem much clearer than others.

Another realization for me is what is important for me at a funeral. Having just gone to one today - which was not necessarily what I want at mine..but very nice none the less.
Here's my list...
1) God! He has to be the focus...without him in my life I am so messed up!
2) Open viewing...at first I was freaked out by this...now how amazing of an experience has this been towards reality and closure in my own life!
3) Contemporary music...none of this hymns that no one has ever heard of ...I know Darren will pick meaningful songs....your the man!
4) Go from the funeral to reception...let's celebrate! If this is happening...it's okay to be sad but hey I'm happy - I know without a doubt that I will be celebrating where I'm at! This world is way to hard of a place to be ...enjoy what there is to enjoy!
5) Use up what left of me and burn the rest...I do not want to be in a box in the cold dark earth!

I know this is probably the wierdest blog you have read lately if not the wierdest ever...but those are my realiztions of the week. I have more...the last one I'll share is if I don't go to bed soon I'm pretty much guaranteed to be really grumpy tommorrow! Nite.

A couple weeks a go Darren had the opportunity to preach at church...here's the link to his sermon....his message really impacted me so I thought I would post it so other people can be blessed as well. fbckelowna.podomatic.com


Sonia