I have a huge list of things I should be doing to get ready for Christmas...but I'm procrastinating! It has been a challenging couple of days for all four of us! I think it is partially the winter blues, partially the Christmas pressure I put on myself and just a whole bunch of small things that have been piling up!

I had applied for two jobs...one has decided not to hire until February the other chose someone else that I know and love - she is a great pick...not sure that that makes it any easier...the reality is that God has a different plan for me - I just wish I knew what it was!

Darren is almost done his third year of school ...only a few more days left! But I can see in his eyes how tired he is.

We are also struggling with the expectations of Christmas vs. the reality of what we can actually accomplish. Not just the gift giving part of it...the baking, card writting, house cleaning, company hosting....It's not a wonder getting to work is feeling so hard when I feel like I have so many unfinished things at home.

So a bah humbug for tonight to myself and hopefully I will figure out how to create "opportunity" from my "crisis" by tommorrow!